when worry overtakes logic

When worry overtakes logic

I shut my eyes tightly,
Listening to the sounds of my heart pound,
In my hand I hold his picture,
Slowly I drop it to the ground…

As it falls so does my soul,
Without him I can’t live another day…
I glance for a moment at the empty pill bottles,
Soon all the sadness will go away…

My fears have always been recognized,
I knew he’d leave just as the rest…
I LOVE HIM DEAR GODESS!! I love him…
But the truth is he hasn’t left me yet…

I’ve allowed my fears to take hold of me,
I let all logic stay behind…
Will he ever forgive me for leaving this way?
I told him I felt “just fine”

The lies had been piling for some time now,
Can’t have him worry about a worthless me…
As I fall down to my knees in pain,
I realize he had reason to worry.

I’m dying now dear goddess!!
I feel my heartbeat rise,
The room is spinning ever faster now…
For the first time in years I cannot cry.

I promised him forever,
But only kept to till death do us part,
I can suddenly feel his sadness!!!
It’s too late…my teardrops start.

Confusion overwhelms me,
And I pass out on the floor,
Death has now claimed me,
I feel pain…no more.

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